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I learned new words today…

Gumusservi is my new favorite word but one cannot use gumusservi often in an everyday conversation. Another word I like is anagapesis which is also weird when used casually. So what better way to show them off than to post a thought about them. However, there’s a very practical word which one can use everyday … insert in almost every word…bash in every sentence if one wills it—- FUCK! Simple it may be but what it lacks in length and style, it makes up for in attitude and “umf”. A glorious word that is full of interpretations depending on how it is delivered. So don’t worry, kids if you’re not pretty enough or popular enough. There is beauty in simplicity. Raise a middle finger to those who say otherwise. 

See? FUCK even teaches us a thing or two about self-esteem. It’s lovely.

1 month ago on 04/17/12 at 06:22pm

I will be graduating this March.

FUCKYEAH!

It’s still astonishing that I made it through college (knowing that most of what I’ve been doing for the past four years involve alcohol, cigars, caffeine, slacking off, ditching classes, cramming and almost anything not related to academics whatsoever). I’m saying goodbye to condescending professors, incessant stacks of paper works which relentlessly haunt me in my sleep, le old tedious accounting and taxation classes; just basically everything that makes student-life miserable. All those years of torment, the hope-crushing grades, the anxiety before taking exams, the tart remarks of some insensitive profs who act as if they’re not talking to a human person but to some other incompetent being just because one doesn’t have a Ph.D after the full name or at least a fancy title before it…goodbye. 

This deserves a GPOY.

(a photo intentionally resized smaller so as to make that pretentious smile not obvious that it’s pretentious) 

this goes to the person who hates me so much:

(turning evil mode on!)

is that you talking or just your insecurity? you’re calling me stupid? now, when did that happen? just in case you’re wondering, ATENISTA AKO (in all efforts not to sound haughty, just making a point). I’m not really mean but if people like YOU—-AN ATTENTION-SEEKING CUNT, start to pique on me, i’m sure as hell i wouldn’t let that pass by! if you’re bored, go fuck a knife then tell me how that’s like! and don’t drag other people to whatever kind of baloney you’re up to! of course this would be futile. the weight of this message will not sink in to a thick headed bitch like you! hell, i don’t even know you and here you are, totally having this fixation over me. get over it, twat! go to hell and stay there! and lastly, im not a pokpok! my parents raised me well….I maybe a lot of things but never a pokpok!

(turning evil mode off)

*deep sigh……sometimes you just have to be meanly blunt to be heard.

i’m still alive by the way. i’ll sketch when our feasibility study’s done.

6 months ago on 11/29/11 at 10:50am

Crunch Time

this week is so stressful, so will be next week and the week after next. 

2 more weeks to go and this semester will be over. the seriousness of my situation is starting to dawn on me so i will try to lessen my time online and will work on requirements and review for the comprehensive exams while i’m at it. 

i’ve to do this for myself….cuz the sooner I graduate from business school, the sooner i get to go to artschool (i hope)

**here’s to hoping i survive this tumblr-abstinence=) goodnight. meet you after two weeks or so. 

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8 months ago on 09/22/11 at 12:58am

that feeling when you see other people’s works and you just wish you could paint everything and anything in the entire…….(well) universe but you just don’t think a lifetime is enough. do you ever get that?

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8 months ago on 09/09/11 at 10:23pm

A shout out to those underrated artists out there. don’t ever doubt yourself. just hold on. LOVE what you do. =)

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8 months ago on 09/05/11 at 08:24pm

T-shirt Painting Process; a post about my way of doing shirt-arts and the materials I use

here it is, as promised. this post will be about how i usually do my t-shirt paintings. you may treat it as a tutorial but i’m not saying that t-shirt paintings SHOULD ONLY BE done in this manner. i just wanna share to you all my ways. this is not to put you guys in a box and make you lose the interest to explore and discover your own techniques. (enough gabbing, let’s go to the more important matters.)

first and foremost, KNOW YOUR ART-STYLE. know your comfort zone—-what can you do? are you confident in holding a brush? can your art be done easily with a brush or maybe a fabric pen would be easier—-as for the case of the doodlers. it is important to consider these matters.

now if that’s settled, we’re ready to go on with this discussion. HERE ARE THE THINGS WHICH YOU WILL NEED.

  • fabric paints (your primary tool)
  • brushes (I use medium hardness.)
  • palette.
  • water (if you have plenty of empty cups, the better)
  • cardboard (or any other material that can be inserted in the shirts to prevent unwanted bleeding through the other side)
  • painting knives (optional. you can actually use sticks or disposable utensils. these are just to spoon the paint and mix em if needed w/o making too much mess)
  • cloth (for wiping off the paints on the knives and the brushes.)

***if you have a hair blower, this can come in handy (again, this is optional) if you have piles of shirts to work on. it can make the drying process quicker.

I use these cheap but great fabric paint products of TULCO.

why? because IT’S CHEAP….and the quality is pretty great. the colors remain vivid even after how many washes. in fact my first shirt-art still hasn’t faded. also, it’s environment-friendly. I picked up the classic types because they dilute well with water compared to those rubberized ones. if you want that water color effect, i suggest you get these babies, too. the rubberized paints clot and do not distribute evenly. plus the fact that they cost more than the classics is a bummer. however, rubberized paints are good for silk screen printing.

to economize, i bought only the primary colors plus the shades black and white. and another thing, the real fun starts in the mixing of colors. =) white is an extender—-great for doing skin and putting emphasis on the eyes. but lemon yellow can also be a good extender too. in fact, it’s the lemon yellow that i use more often.

on to the brushes now.

I use the medium-hard bristles. i find them convenient since i’m mostly after the water-color effect. the medium-hard bristles hold enough water to achieve the desired result. they’re also convenient for painting on fabric w/o primer. the soft ones aren’t too much of a help. i have 4 flats and a little round brush BTW.

the cloth, palette, cardboard and water. i’m sure you already know what these are for.

this next material, which i don’t use often, is very useful for the doodlers and for those who aren’t comfortable with a brush…and for those whose arts are mostly consist of lines—-SOLID LINES. it’s the fabric pen. (it’s permanent, yes.)

above are the materials you will need. these should be in your box of art supplies if you plan on making your own hand-painted shirts. now let’s get down to business. let us talk about the process and i have some little tips to share with you guys which i’ve observed from my first-hand experience.

if you plan on painting people, the skin is one of the primary concerns. it can be quite the challenge.

HOW I DO IT. 

I start with light colors. remember that we are painting on a fabric…a cotton without a PRIMER. it’s not exactly the same as painting on a canvas…why starting with light colors is recommended? because one of the pitfalls of fabric is the uncontrollable bleeding. at least with the light ones, you can cover up the unintended bleeds with dark shades after. but don’t hate these uncontrollable bleeding too much. you can actually use it to your advantage. bleeds are art, too. =) but too much is not good.

for the skin, i start off with mixtures of these

red and white and/or red and yellow. the former makes pink while the latter makes orange. plus dilute them with water…it depends on how light you want it. of course adding too much water makes the mixture a lot lighter. you may alternate the pink and orange—-whatever satisfies your taste. use your wide brush and allow it to absorb water first. then just put the colors all over the skin area. **shade isn’t the concern at this stage.

now, when you’re through with this, let’s move on to a darker color…

a mixture of these three colors creates brown/shades of brown. if you want an ochre-ish color, the amount of yellow should be greater. if you want chocolate brown, even amounts are needed. if you want red-head-ish kind of brown, then a greater amount of red is needed. it really depends on how u want the skin to look like.

i took pictures of my progress (this one’s the one i was working on last night) and we’ll try to get notes on these things;)

in this piece i started with orange, diluted with much water and pink on some highlights, like around the eyes, lips, temples, etc. then used the brown for prior emphasis on shadows w/c will come later. in faces, it’d be wise to use the little pointed soft brushes, which you can buy in almost every artstores out there.

this, too can be very useful when it comes to lining the lashes and shadows in and around the eyes. srsly. get one of these or anything that is similar if you can.

now that i;m through, i’m ready to put shadows. a little tip in doing black shadows. take a very little amount of black and dilute in water til the color gets lighter than murky and use either your big brushes or the medium ones to apply the shadows. remember our brown pre-shadows? just follow the contours of those pre-shadows. and if there are unintended blotches, you may remedy them by adding some more water directly on the fabric using the medium-hard brush i told you about.

the bristles quickly absorb water, which is really practical in matters like these.

as the shadows settle, it should most likely look like this (focus on the face)

you see the black bleeding out of the line of the face? this is why i always want to start with lighter shades. those things can be really stubborn but trust me, you will learn to love them. you may adjust the darkness as much as u please but bear in mind that you cannot work continuously. take time to set the paint dry first to avoid ugly smudges especially if you are now working on the black parts. if the paint is dry, then you can resume painting. if you’re really chasing after deadlines, for those who wanna freelance, use your hair blower to be quicker.

remember, the skin need not be exactly realistic or exactly that of your reference. just play around with it…do whatever you please. but if you succeed in doing hardcore realistic skin on fabric, tell me how=) heheh.

notice that the picture above still has no lashes and the outline of the eyes aren’t defined yet. it is so because i like to do it last. i want the colors to set dry first before i work on hard solid black lines to avoid smudge. again, the little pointed brush is very helpful around these areas.

just put a point of white paint on the iris to put a little life to the eyes. you know these tricks, i’m sure.

still focusing on the head part, i did the rest after i felt satisfied with the face and the skin color. notice that the bleeds around the face during the early stage are no longer visible now? because the hair color has already covered the flaws, thus it’s “cleaner”.

when i’m all done with the figure, i usually splatter paint on the shirt to cover up the background. i dunno, there’s just something in splattering that makes me happy. the act itself is already very liberating. it’s very expressive especially when a great music is playing while you’re splattering. JUST FEELS LOVELY.

i usually stop right here….cuz i still want to see the white of the shirt and i don’t want the splatters to be overpowered by other colors. i want it as a messy piece of art. but as you can see, there are still bleeds around the shoulders and back part——almost everywhere. if you really want to get rid of these, color your background with a darker color. but for me, these bleeds are artsy. =)

ADDITIONAL TIPS:

always remember that these fabrics vary. some cloths don’t bleed as much as the others. so choose the right fabric for your taste. try with cheaper ones for practice if you must.

another thing, if you’ve made errors, you can use your white extender to cover them up. although there are materials that can really erase fabric paints but they may damage the fabric, so i still go for the white extenders. OR you just apply water directly on the blotches to even it out and spread the color.

be careful, however, with the amount of water you use in diluting. when the paint is wet, it normally looks darker. there are cases that you seem satisfied with the color intensity when you see your work wet but as it dries up, it might turn out to be a lot lighter than expected. thus leaving the piece looking pale.

that’s why take time to pause. allow it to dry up so that you can assess if the color intensity is good enough for you. if not, just add some more.

WHY I LIKE WATER-COLOR EFFECT:

because i like my shirts to maintain their softness. if you do not dilute with water and just directly apply the paint on the fabric, when it dries up„ the fabric becomes hard and sometimes flaky  and it will lose its flowiness. and it becomes thick on the painted part.

———i hope you’ve found things useful in this post. if you think i have missed other important points that need to be discussed or if you have other questions regarding this or clarifications, just tumblr ask me and i;ll answer if i can. i really hope i have helped you guys. thanks for all your support. and just always remember to have fun. keep in mind that you do shirt arts for yourself and not for commercialism. if you plan to freelance, market your works as fine arts and not plain fashion. love what you do. ENJOY PAINTING.

One of those proud moments.

hear this..dad came over to my flat just now and with him was his artist friend from the states whom he introduced me to. tis nice that his artist friend thinks i already have knowledge at what i do and that i know the basics even though everything i’ve learned is self-taught. Yes the compliments, especially coming from a professional artist, are great and all but what really melted my heart is that my DAD is actually starting to really care about what i love to do.

his friend also invited me to this cafe/art gallery and that i should join contests or even conventions for me to meet new people. when asked about how much i charge for my shirt-arts, i told him it depends on who wants it but it’s really cheap in general…cuz money isn’t actually the priority at the moment. it’s the practice that i’m after. but he said i should never be afraid of charging high. i deserve a lot more than what i’m getting right now. he told me i could display some of my works on this cafe/art-gallery that he mentioned earlier and that i could sell them for a lot more… ***o i wish i could.

but right now, i’m just so happy my father thinks my art is not just “EH”. =)

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9 months ago on 08/27/11 at 12:53pm

I respect those girls who do not fear the carbs. at least they are brave enough to defy society’s concept of beauty. so if you see me in the university foodcourt eating 2 meals with extra rice in one sitting, it’s just me being beautiful and rocking it! =)

9 months ago on 08/17/11 at 10:31pm

I earned his Respect…..

Congrats Ateneo de Davao for a lively and most of all a successful fiesta, I had so much fun.

And hello new followers, i hope you enjoy thegreenerthebetter. i am vajeijei (of course this is just an alias), i post my works and wips here and some of my thoughts and a little rebolgs of the things i like.

and for those who have been following my henna tattoo updates, i have a lot of things to tell you guys. =)

yesterday was the competition for the henna tattoo. a pair of artists must work on two models (the right arm for the male model and the left arm for the female model. and the final score will be the average of the individual scores). i was assigned to the female model and my partner to the male model….. as it was my first time to compete in such i was so freakin’ nervous it felt like my heart’s gonna fall in my stomach any moment, i’m a greenhorn at competitions. so i told my partner (the one i was telling you about in the previous posts) that i’m afraid i’m gonna screw up the whole thing and he told me that there’s nothing to worry about cuz i have him (i didn’t know how to interpret it, was it supportiveness  or haughtiness? or maybe a little bit of both.) I just didn’t mind it.

when i knew that 2 of the competitors are the Mohawk guy, whom i have known to have been working as a henna tattoo artist in some mall and his partner’s my relative who also happens to be a great artist and when it comes to formulating concepts, she is amazing, my anxiety just raised even more.

when the event started, i never wasted time, i immediately sketched the design on my model’s arm and went ahead with the inking right after. i didn’t use a magnum cuz i don’t knw how to make one, instead i used toothpick and cotton buds—sure it took me a while but i’m happy i have done it. And seeing that my original design was properly executed (but there are some modifications) even though the model’s arm is thin, I am more than satisfied. Doing realism with henna as a medium on a thin surface like a girl’s shoulder is a bit of a challenge but it was fun. And most of all, i am just glad my model loved it, that she walks it proudly.

when the verdict came, we were told that we were the 1st runner up, at first i was a bit sad but i have to admit that the champions, the pair of artists, deserve the title. their concept’s just awesome. however, when i was told that i got the first place in the individual ranking for female models,the disappointment vanished in a jiffy. hahaha. it’s not a matter of trophies and banners anymore, it has become a matter of self-satisfaction, achievement and feeding egos. my partner (my co-artist who never believed i could do it) came in 5th place for the individual ranking for male models. and when he heard of the news, i knew in my heart i have won BIG TIME! i earned his respect, he congratulated me. Just knowing that i schooled him is more than enough. I WAS SO DAMN HAPPY!

photo dumps will come later after i get all of the pictures from friends and friends of friends. (ang hirap ng walang DSLR haha)

9 months ago on 08/14/11 at 01:29pm

It was one of those “he never trusted me. and i don’t think he ever will. but i trust myself enough and i will prove him wrong” moments

Oh good Lord, hallelujah! please please please… PUH…LEASE just let me brag about what happened tonight. remember the prick i was telling you the other day—my co-artist for the tattoo we’re working on? well, he is a haughty prick no more.

tonight we practiced application and of course i did what every infuriated artist would do—-keep calm and bring the mofucker who ruined your week down hard and cold! No not really, i meant PROVE THE BUMMER WRONG. =)

the models came in very late so we had to start late and i was thinking that i should work as quickly as i could so as to get home before midnight. and i had already changed my original design into a simpler one. honestly it took me just about an hour to finish..i just had to polish it up so i spent a few mins more working on small details. when i took a peek at his, he hasn’t even pieced half of his design yet. and his model was already secretly complaining that it’s taking so long and that she doesn’t like his designs. it was so sweet seeing him getting all pumped up while i was just keeping my cool. and he calls himself the master of henna….pshaw! baloney.

by the time we were both done, his model came to me and told me i should’ve picked her. she doesn’t like his work and so does the facilitator. my model was even laughing (secretly) at his model. and i was just sitting there, wanting to laugh out so loud and shout “I TOLD YOU SO” right in his face but i kept my silence. boy, i can be really bitchy sometimes, too. and rubbing failure in is one of my faves.

one of the best things in life is proving to those people who think “you can’t” that”you can”!

i’m sorry, i know this is mean but i don’t regret posting it! =)

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9 months ago on 08/10/11 at 11:05pm

Sorry if I am too much of an optimist-prime for a Nega-tron like you

Allow me, just this once, to rant about what happened to me today. i promise i will lessen the cursing if not avoid it completely.

I cannot work with people who eat and breathe negativity on a daily basis. it’s true that a negative thought constitutes more negative thoughts. the same applies for people. that’s why i cannot stand being with pessimists because i don’t want to be like them, i want to keep my positive outlook in life, thank u very much.

today i was asked to design a tattoo and meet up with my co-artist before we submit each of our tentative designs. i was doing my own thing, minding my own business, finishing my sketch when the prick kept having a go at me saying that mine’s too ambitious, that it’s too difficult and that we won’t be able to make it…that it’s impossible cuz according to him, it can only be done on a canvas. of course i was just ‘eh’…leave my business to me chum. do you sketch a design while thinking that you’re not gonna be able to do it, that it’s gonna be impossible to realize? NO, of course not! but he never stopped there. he told me, sternly, to stop what i’m doing and close my sketchbook and that i should watch his…say what? we were both asked to make our own design and that we’re chasing after a tight deadline and u just want me to stop my work?  so in my mind i was like  ” what the hell did u just say Fucker?”. that self-absorbed, condescending jackass wants me to stop sketching just so i can watch him sketch?! and he was asking me for ideas for the tattoo design—- what the heck did you think i was doing bitch? he asked me to limit my design to simple ones so as to make it more doable on the skin, i told him  weeks before that we should practice ASAP so we know if we can do it but NO! cuz the prick says only the high ranking officers of the club can know the ingredients and the HOW’s of making the ink…of course i asked again, nicely, if he could just make the solution and just give me the ink so that i can practice beforehand. but again he ignored that request. so i said to myself, “what is this person’s malfunction? i have to get out of here before i lose control of my temper.”  

even before, i knew he thinks too highly of himself and he calls himself the master of henna tattoo in the University, i looked pass that…i convinced myself that working with him won’t be too bad…but now i’m not so sure. i just cannot work with him anymore.

tell me, do u like working while someone’s bashing you with negativity..that you cannot do this..that you can;t make that. i mean what the hell?! artists have the freest mind. and having someone to limit those artistic ideas and dictates you of what is to be done is like denying a bird of its wings and entrapping it in a cage still. what do u think i should do to de-stress tonight?

9 months ago on 08/08/11 at 05:55pm

The Walking Canvases

The University art club is planning on a shirt-art project for a cause and part of our practice is to wear our very own shirt art once a week (every Wednesday) to showcase our crafts and also to monitor our progress. So i rushed a shirt painting Tuesday night which took me about 6 and a half hours to finish.

I wore this yesterday in the University. The concept is Zoo-ballyhoo and I be the Zoo keeper. hahah no, not really.

I met up with two of the most awesome self-taught artists i know,            

I at the left, Pitang at the middle and Duane at the right….wearing our own art pieces … great people, those two.

Met Sir Don, a famous local designer, along the way and he got interested with our arts…thanks sir.

We talked about making an art group outside of the school which will be named The Walking Canvas and pooled plans and ideas about projects and other artsy stuffs, and of course some dirty personal spills to lighten up the mood, hahaha…And from what i have heard the INQUIRER (LIFESTYLE) is interested in featuring the walking canvas project. O i do hope so!

to sum it all up, last night was a hell-lot-of-fun night. Pitang and Duane, you guys have crazy big ideas…..and I.LOVE.EVERYTHING.ABOUT.THEM!

this is the sleeping dinosaur mountain. it can be found in my hometown, Mati Davao Oriental, Philippines. so named because of its shape. nature surely has great wonders. let us all do something to save our environment if we want future generations to witness these beauties.

when i was still a kid my imaginations used to scare me that the mountain may, someday, come to life and eat every moving creature it sees but come to think of it (if it did come to life) it wouldn’t pose a threat because it’s kinda shaped like a herbivorous dino, don’t you think?

1 year ago on 03/28/11 at 03:30am

oh lookie, a follower…

hahaha, 

i don’t get followers very often, hence the absurd reaction. 

allow me to introduce myself…many of my followers don’t really know even lil infos about me so this post is basically about who i am…

  • i’m JJ, Vajeijei is my signature name, my url is thegreenerthebetter. 
  • born on 10-20-91
  • a filipino
  • i study in ateneo de davao university—-3rdyear college major in mgt acctg
  • a feminist artist…a freelancer 
  • my tumblr is about my artworks and some random thoughts
  • i post a lot of WIPs, finished works are rarely posted =) simply because i don’t usually finish my WIPs.
  • i love green, grey’s anatomy, trueblood, HP.
  • i love adventure books and self-help books
  • i’m a major sucker for romantic comedies, hero-movies, cartoons and magics.
  • i’m an advocate of gender equality
  • i promote green-living
  • i used to be a vegan, but now i’m a pesco-vegetarian (cuz i need protein LOL) but i eat beef sometimes when nobody’s watching, haha.

that’s just about it. check out the people that i follow if you want to see some more interesting tumblogs. 

1 year ago on 03/03/11 at 06:46pm